Mixtape

I usually title my blog thru song name recently, but this title pop up in my mind. So let me tell you what is all about.

Most of 90's born kids may not even know whats is mixtape even means. I'm gonna let you guys know what is mixtape and what surrounds that era. 

How do you like to listen to your music? iPod and mp3’s? CD? Mobile streaming sites like Pandora or Last FM? Or how about something more analog? Like vinyls or even…. cassette tapes?

Cassette tapes gained popularity in the 1980s when they allowed music to become portable. No longer did people have to use phonographs for their musical entertainment purposes. They were wildly popular with the launch of the Sony Walkman, one of the most successful consumer products of all time. I can remember tape players being sold until the early 2000’s once the revolutionary Napster, iPods, and iTunes came around and digitized today’s music industry

Now that's not I wanna talk about, that was just an intro. What I really wanna talk about is when I was in teen age, there was this trends. Which I simply like to call it mix tape love. You

see when we age of 13-19  in school some even dun have puberty yet, are obviously they don't have guts to tell they love to the girl. Then came a trend of teenagers making mix tape and sent that to a girl. These are not necessarily a love confession, it can be a gift of appreciation to a good friend  but then again half of them express their feelings thru it. What will we do was we make a tape in 2 ways,either to record all love songs(not so common) or record song that you particularly like. And give this to them(girls). This is step to make them know our song preferences, this allow them to know which kinda person we are. For example if its alot of rap song, from there they'll know he is the skater boy(that's me), if the tape mixed by grunge songs, they'll know that they are confident boys, if they they hear tape with sad rock songs, this means they are somehow heart broken kids, if they hear love songs all the way,that means poor boys needs love so bad. When a girls received a mix tape they will

be in awe coz its a mix tape, that boy giving his personal collection of song to her. The girls will know that they meant something to that guy. Here's the catch mostly girls will not like the boys song. Girl's listen to the conventional song in radio's, mostly. Sometime to appreciate about teenage girl's in 90's is, they will llisten to that mix tape over n over again. It doesn't matter they don't like it. Some says, "its too noisy","make me sleepy","is this what u call a song","I can't understand a word", "there is too much vulgar words", n much much more, but they will not stop listening to it. When the boys ask "then why are you listening to it". They'll reply by saying "Its becoz u gave it to me." That appreciation is so pure and so rare nowadays. Nowadays people don't value relationship like that anymore. These girls kept listening to those songs and know you what after sometime they like whats inside that mixtape. Its so beautiful thats all I can say.

 Oh ya, I almost forget some girls will return the favour by making their mixtape. Now its the guys torture start, take me for example, Here I am listening to rap songs and comes a mix tape of Truly madly deeply by Savage Garden. "Euuuu, what kinda song is this girl?" That was what went thru my mind for the first time I heard that song but if you ask me now, Truly madly deeply is one of my favourite song. When a girl made a mixtape for a boy we really cherish it. We kept listening till the tape breaks. Whats is so awesome is on tape there will be sticker where you should write the band
name and the

album, but what we will write was "specially for you by someone you know". Something like that. Thats so cool and awesome. Kids those days dunno what is sex. What I meant is they knew what sex is all about, but they dun dare to try it, at least not by majorities. So when they look at a girl they don't see targets, they see friendships or love at the first sight. Hence these small things means alot to us. The sweetness of a relationship was fully explored by us. Perhaps thats why we care for every friends of ours. We are people who cares a lot. Not only to female, even to male friends. Guys will call another guy to ask how everything going on. If you mention that now, people will say that is some gay shits, but its not believe me.

I remember to have a female friends in a different class, she was taking civil, I was in electrical and electronics. I use to skip a period n go sit beside her. It took the teacher six months or so to know that I was not belong at that class. You what I do sit beside her, nothing, listen to what teacher is teaching. Ya we talk, obviously, every time She has the english period she will search for me, I will smile when I see her eyes is gazing for me, She would smile back, I would say "hey babe" she might say "I thought you were not coming." The question is why she is so special, did I love her? The answer is No. But why I kept going to her class, coz i like hanging out with her. She was my exact opposite. We had nothing in common interest, whatever I liked,she hated and vise versa. As simple as that was the reason to like her. 

Enough with my story. I'm not saying all kids in nowadays  is bad, or all kids in my time was good. Value of friendship,respect,caringness is surely decreased a lot these days. I would like that to change.I wish people care more for each other.

Coming back to my topic

These we in 90's, I kid you not we had so many type of people, skaterz, skinhead, punk heads,black metals,chicanos and even nazi's, can you believe we had nazi's in Malaysia. No matter, Its all good. We were learning rite.

Skaterz had one troubling rule- No girlfriend. This is hard man, we have to secretly keep our so
called love affairs. Kantoi mampus. It would becomes worst for those who is in love with skater girls. Yup we do have skater girls but not as many as in punk heads n skinheads. "not all girls like rough sport you see."

We would wear the infomous flowered shirt(batik bunga). Baggy pants, walk limping like as if we were having short legged at some point. We have our own hand hand shakes. It it kept changing. But the most famous was the one that all poser do nowadays, Poser is the name was given to people who dress up like a skater boy, but they never own a skateboard. We were groups that cost least prob, coz we don't fight much or do any things that juvenile sort. 

Skinheads simple enough just bold your head,boots, white shirt. Punk head, u must have a hair like you were electrocuted. Terpacak sana sini. These two groups normally anak org kaya, awek cun cun, also kaya. Coz their clothing is very expensive.

Ok I've bored you people enough. Thats was a glimpse of my teenagehood. I just felt like wanted to share. I had a very colourful teenage life. We had so many originalities. Enjoy your life people. Enjoy it to the max.

 P.S. Make you own version of MIXTAPE, share your love & friendship.

Father of mine

Father of mine

Tell me where have you been

You know I just closed my eyes

My whole world disappeared

Father of mine

Take me back to the day

When I was still your golden boy

Back before you went away

I remember the blue skies, walking the block

I loved it when you held me high

I loved to hear you talk

You would take me to the movie

You would tke me to the beach

Take me to a place inside that is so hard to reach

Father of mine

Tell me where did you go

You had the world inside your hand

But you did not seem to know

Father of mine

Tell me what do you see

When you look back at your wasted life and you don't see me

I was ten years old 

Doing all that i could

It wasn't easy for me to be a scared white boy in a black neighborhood

Sometimes you would send me a birthday card

With a five dollar bill

I never understood you then and I guess I never will

Daddy gave me a name

My dad he gave me a name

Then he walked away

Daddy gave me a name

Then he walked away

My dad gave me a name

Father of mine

Tell me where have you been

I just closed my eyes

And the world disappeared

Father of mine

Tell me how do you sleep

With the children you abandoned

And the wife I saw you beat

I will never be safe

I will never be safe

I will always be weird inside

I will always be lame

Now I am a grown man

With a child of my own

And I swear I'm not going to let her know

All the pain I have known

Then he walked away

Daddy gave me a name

Then he walked away

My dad gave me a name

Then he walked away

                                   -EVERCLEAR-

Father

The is the hero for most human being. Unfortunately not for all. Father should be the one teaches you the first step in life He suppose to be there inside the emergency room when mommy give birth to understand the child and mommy.

Father.

He is a figure of respect. A father's love is vital for a child. Some say a child without love is a lost child. The reality in our country, most of the fathers won't do job as the should. I used the word "won't" not "can't". They are capable but they just wont. I'm not saying to be a perfect father but just die trying to do so is enough. Fathers in our country feel love is to be fed by mothers, hence they neglect to be there for a child. Whats wrong with you f@#kers. Seriously is something wrong with you'all. I know, like Ustaz Nouman Ali Khan said, yes its true, that a father don't have the father's love auto mode like a mother does. It has to be thought be the father himself. A father should deeply think that they have a child. Find, create, duplicate, steal, copy or learn love from anywhere and place it on your child. This is an exercise that need to be done by every father. Is that so hard d!ckheads?  How come you f@#ckers can fall in love to a girl and get married to them? Perhaps its becoz you'all don't have the "Mother of all love". Which is love to Allah, Ther creator and Muhammad S.A.W, His Messenger. Maybe that's where it got all wrong.

Father.

You suppose to be an example in everything ironically you are the example to a child when you being the bad one. You suppose to be the one teaches ا ب ت ,ABC & DoReMi but they learn the curse words. 

You suppose to teach them a flying kiss hand gesture, sadly a child first hand gesture is showing middle finger. I saw this with my own eyes recently, that is just sad. You suppose to show a loving relationship & friendship but usually what they see is fights between an husband & a wife. These are fathers giving bad examples, not to mention the ones that left their child abandon. These fathers are not even worth mentioning. They are not fathers, A$$holes should be more appropriate name for them. How could you'all? I've heard a father of someone said he can feel when his children is in trouble. That is how great the bond of a father a child can be. How about you'all? Don't you'all have feeling anything. 

You gave a name and walk away.

Fathers that I wish every child in the world 

Father.

He is the hero, mentor, and a teacher. A father should be the one teaches the first walk of a child. He suppose to bath them. He suppose to be their toys. He suppose to tie their shoes. He suppose to tuck on the bed and read the story of The real & ultimate superhero of mankind, the best role model, Muhammad S.A.W., before they fall asleep. He suppose to be there to hug them on their first day of school as they are crying and scared. He suppose to teach them how to play soccer, videogame or any game for that matter. He suppose to make them feel safe when they had a nightmare. 

He suppose to catch their every fall. 

He suppose to be a son's best friend & a daughter's first love.

He suppose to be the first one to teach how to ride a bike & drive a car. 

He suppose to be the one one teaches them how to fight for self defence. He is the one who actually need to teach a son what is sex( daughters is responsibility of a mommy) 

He suppose to be there when they achieve something in their life. It maybe tiny itty bitty achievement but he suppose to praise them. " Look father a draw an elephant" if one says that even if the one drew something resemble a mouse than an elephant, he suppose to say good job. He suppose be the one that make sand castle with them. He is where they should come for an advice in any matter. 

He suppose be there when they get married. 

He suppose to be a father. 

He suppose to show them as much as love there is in this world.

Yet you become a bad example or worst not even be in their life. A child that don't have the love of a father will always be broken even if that child have grown to have become a father/mother of their own. They will be tormented every second they life. They breate the air but they suffocate in living.The walk the path but they drag their own soul. They smile & laugh outside but they constantly weeping & crying inside. They'll act as if the world is perfect but secretly they sad & envy those have fathers. No matter what's their age, if they sees a loving father to a child infront of their eyes, it will be like an extremely hot sharp needle poking their heart.

Father.

A child without a father's love is truly the sad story of our world. Hunger. Hunger for love is constantly will be in their veins and heart. They intend to seek love from neighbours, friends, lover, or husband/wife. Unfortunately a father's love is too delicate to be seek. Some would be lucky to find this delicate4 love on a friend, best friend, teacher, or husband/wife. Not all will be lucky,the rest will be in infinite pain. 

Fathers out there please think of your childrens heart. They need you even if they say they don't. Please give them as much love as they deserve.

Father of mine.....

  

You give love a bad name

What is love? Nowadays the world becoming so sleazy that people don't even understand simple matters. Ignorance is one thing but not knowing that makes my blood
boils. Recently I have read comment on about this girl posting saying that, she thanks the God that she is loving a dude for 2 days and he hasn't cheated her. WTF!!! Aleuto kau. She just knew a guy for 2 freaking days. Seriously!!!, is this how our world has become? "That is an Infatuation you idiot."

People before you start loving someone at least have a Love 101 classes somehow. Learn how a heart will start to love someone.

Love 101

Step 1. Somewhere in your life you will be attracted to someone because their personality, beauty. Sometime they are just friend's of yours, u may not even realize u r attracted to him/her.

Step 2. The more you know about them, the more fascinated you may feel. In certain
cases you might have Certain rush of adrenaline when he/she texted,call you or simply Hearing their name ad you walk by the street.This is Infatuation. These feeling usually,one is inspired with an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone. This feelings might also happen to a friend of yours but its not necessarily will end up in love or marriage but its highly probable you will become best friends to him/her.

Step 3. There will be time you may out of contact with him/her. Thats when all hell break loose. You start to have a weird feeling, like you constantly feel like you have not done something, like u have forget to bring something. Feeling restless is a normal symptom. Well now u start to think, why you have these feeling?, then you will found out this feeling indicates that you missing him/her. Once u know that, all you can do is think about them,Day and night, from dawn to dusk. Everything Seems to be wrong.
Some may even feel that they wanna scream &  shout to let it out. The moment you get in touch with them its like you are bathing under a waterfall. Your hear pumps faster and slower at the same time while you are talking to them. Ahaaak! You might be in love already, if not don't  worry you will love him/her in no time. 

These are the moment to cherish. These would make u appreciate what is love.

Please don't be like an idiotic people that don't understand the value of a relationship.Im getting sick of people that cares just to sleep with anyone. All they care how to get in to the pants and skirt. Men, please have your own dignity and pride. Girls don't be so cheap, respect your own body. Yes, have fun but be responsible or go all out when you feel its worth it. Please stop being idiots. Thats all i have to say.

P.S: i would like to express my gratitude to amiatersepitmeja http://miya4u.blogspot.com  for inspiring me to write my blog again. I have lost my own self for nearly 3 years. Thanks to her, she made me come back.

   

FaM!ly Day

Recently the company i work for held Family Day.
It was fun but last time we used to have 3days 2nights, but its only 1& 1/2 days.
Anyway better than nothing...

I just came on time from Vietnam for the Family day...  here's some pics guys.....

This gal took my heart away... she so cute, she is daughter of my senior colleague  

Here's some pics on dinner folks.